on e wae back todae,
my miind keep tiinking abt alot of stuffs..
those i xperienced, those ppl xperienced.

n it jux brought mi 2 tiink abt tis gal who is very close 2 mi.
noe her a couple yrs ler..
she's beri much lik mi 2 be kinda quiet in nature.

she's e only gal who confide in mi about almost her entire life.
e other frenx are jux toking part n parcel of theirs.

she once beri depressed de told mi b4
tat she has no courage to express wad she's realli tinking abt.
no courage to let ppl noe tat she's hurt.
no courage to let ppl understand tat she din wan 2 b so sensitive.
no courage to try getting or even forcing ppl to pay attention 2 her which she sae seems 2 b meaningless if it realli wasnt meant to be.

i wonder why would she choose 2 tell those 2 mi, n onli mi..
probably i can understand her, sumtm onli.
or mayb appreciated her sumtm n realli hope 2 change her bad pts instead of detesting her.

she once cried n asked mi
do u noe e feeling of having lotsa frenx but actualli u din hav ani ??
she told mi e grps of frenx she has ever mixed with,
owaez eventually form into smaller grps
n e groups she went
doesnt realli belong 2 her..
i dun quite understand her..
until recently i could feel tat there might b such person here n there too.

i realise she actualli wasnt being loathed frm her grps.
jux tat probably e feel of 'togetherness' wasnt realli there.
its so difficult 2 describe.
u might see her being able 2 mix wif all e grps of frenx.
but in reality..
she doesnt hav ani grp tat would probably feel sad w/o her
or even din even tink of her if ther's ani grp outing.
its not coz of her character.
actualli nobody's at fault.
it is really probably a bo bian.

her incident
remind mi of 2 person.
jq probably jux diff 2 click wif us.
its a saddening truth.
not coz he gt prob.
or we bias.
jux realli bo bian.

i realli couldnt tahan e feeliin of being an xtra.
if i verdict things are a 'bo bian' too,
i rather back out frm e grp.
she share quite e same sentiments wif mi too.

e time whereby her words were 'neva heard'..
her sentences were neva reciprocate..
jokes were neva appreciated..
onlii 2 be left behind lik arent suppose 2 leave 2gather..
onlii 2 keep tagging behind..
lookiin at how they tell stories 2 each other..
laughing n playing wif each other
as if as she's jux a transparency..
all she can do is call n ask mi why is tis happening 2 her again.

i do nt noe how 2 help her.
onlii 2 see her smiles changing 2 sadness dae by dae.

seeing her tis wae..
i felt so xiin fu 2 hav such a nice huiling sis, high EQ ah gong..
bigsis-like jojo. all u lik so teng wo. kaka.
sumtm gt e sudden gandong'ness 2wards dem. hahaha..
wilson so helpful, quite high EQ too.
joel edwin. thou lik onli bulli mi, but noe u 2 beri kind-harted de lar.
heex..
alamak lik praise u all till so high ler. =.="
thou bit separate to 2 grps sumtm..
but realli realli hope we all 4eva can stay so nice 2gather.
nt be a stranger even if din get much tm 2gather.



*damn. i realli duno wth i'm tokiin abt agaiin.
jux realli hope tis fren of mine b happi soon.. lik tat =DDD

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. beiin sincere to everri one

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